The Crosby Family: Happenings

So it's been awhile since my last post. We've had a busy week...although I am not really sure why! We spent a lot of time playing with Bagel the Beagle, taking him for walks, chasing him through the neighborhood when he ran away (yes), trying to convince Jack that he's too little to walk the dog and failing, consoling Jack when the dog pulls him over or down, and going to the park. Bagel goes home tomorrow, and Jack is going to be heartbroken. The first thing he asks when I pick him up from school is "can we go walk my dog Bagel?" and when he wakes up in the morning, it's "Mom, let Bagel out, he has to go potty like me." Sigh. The poor kid...

Caroline is doing wonderfully! She still isn't a huge fan of solids but I am trying every day. She is super happy and giggly and still our awesome, content, calm little girl. She turned 5 months old on the 17th (YES, 5 months!! How is that possible??) and she learns new things every day. She loves to grab things, put them in her mouth, chew on her hands, and grab her various body parts that she's just discovered. (She loves pinching her own fat rolls on her belly in the bathtub. It's hilarious.) She's growing and nursing great and just generally such an amazing baby! We are so blessed - and we do remember that every day.

And me. Hmm, how much to divulge? I have been struggling with lots of things lately, including super intense anxiety, bits of depression, and general feelings of unsettledness (is that a word?) I am antsy and irritable and angry a lot. I also have a LOT of pain around and inside of my c-section incision. I didn't realize how bad it really was until Justin started noticing. Things like wearing normal pants with a real waistband, bending over, having Caroline's legs touch that area when I change her, etc are super painful. It brings tears to my eyes, causes me to double over or wince in pain, and you can imagine the impact that has on all the other parts of my life. I finally went back to my doctor, at Justin's insistence. The incision itself has always looked great so I figured it was just normal healing. She gave me a full exam and found some things that concerned her with my abdomen, including what she thinks is a large ovarian cyst on my right side. I have an appointment on October 3 at the hospital for a special ultrasound to look at that, and my scar tissue internally. From there we will talk about treatment options. I am just so thankful to have it inspected, because it has been causing me a lot of pain, and from what the doctor says, is probably contributing to my mood issues as well. So I will keep you updated. Who knew that you could have complications 5 months after your baby was born??

Here are some recent snapshots. Enjoy!